I see him everyday watching, waiting. He is methodical in his approach unlike me for I just go about doing anything however I feel whenever I feel. I cant stand the fact that he doesnt try hard and still manages to get by with ease, everyday I bust myself to get better and I cant better myself. How does he do it. I try harder than he does and he still beats me, how is this fair. I think to myself maybe I should care less, maybe I care to much about this and thats whats wrong with me. I dont know if thats it but its worth a try.

I sit here also pondering why he is so quiet, he doesnt talk much to anyone. I cant stand not talking to people and interacting with them, he seems just fine over there in his corner sitting by himself. Maybe that would make it easier to concetrate I guess but I would rather be in the company of people. I should get back to reading instead of trying to figure him out. This will take my mind off things reading always does.